negativity.

It's over. I am finally rid of the thing what was holding me back. MYSELF. My OLD self, that is... I have been in a long-term relationship with Negativity. I could point a finger at the individual/s that I allowed to control me, but I am the master of my own fate. I had to look in the mirror and say "Is it I"... Going through the ups/downs/kicks/bruises, I didn't choose. I just... I just... WAS. I took a look around and realized: I would wake up in the morning with feelings of disdain for my surroundings, go on through the day with the outlook of a person who had been to hell and back *"how much more can a woman take", and at night, I laid with danger. I then had to say to myself, I've stayed too damned long. I've had enough. Life is soooo long/short. whichever one you prefer, to be caught up with things that weigh you down. BAGGAGE... negativity is baggage. Some people's baggage comes in the form of excess pounds, others in the form of depression... NEGATIVITY IS BAGGAGE that I can't carry around anymore. In the process of packing up my baggage, LITERALLY packing to get the hell away from the Negativity, I started to get angry that I allowed things to transpire the way they did. I was angry that someone else will go through the same rough-time I was going through. But then I said, I am going to let me silence be my rebuttal. To everything that was said and done to me to hurt and/or halt me, I said NOTHING. Still waters run deep... All the while that I have been quiet I was DECIDING to move on. Formulating a master plan, so I dropped my baggage, and now Negativity is going to wish He never met me. A negative person wants to see you fail, but what they don't count on is a God bigger than both You, Me and THEM. I realize that with me taking one step, God is taking the next immediate ones for me. Negativity, you thought you won the war, but you haven't even won a battle....